I am an introvert

There, I said it. Then again, it's always been obvious to anyone who knows me. They know not to ask me to parties, I won't go. They can ask what book I just read or recommend a good movie. If I'm alone, I'm generally happy. I do like being around people some of the time, but do need time to recharge.

I've been playing with personality tests as of late. I've taken several to see if I get the same result and how the questions are structured, etc. Interestingly enough, all of the tests do it differently, but I get the same result every time. INFP. That just means I'm an introvert, intuitive, feeling, and perceiving. Perceiving and Judgement vie for the upper hand, but perceiving gets it every time, just barely. I was probably INFJ before we joined the Army. But it took away my need to have every little thing planned out. Mainly because the Army laughs in the face of plans. I'll have grand plans for something and then BLAM! There's the phone call telling me hubby will be late coming home. Or he gets home and starts dragging out his gear bags, starts to pack, saying they're going out on a 2 week training mission. It's rather annoying. But it's something I've had to adapt to or go insane. I've learned to shrug my shoulders and come up with something else.

It's been fun and silly. But it has taught me a lot about myself. I also took a test in which you could guess at someone else's personality. I was aiming for my hubby's of course. That whole personality compatibility thing. Turns out we're an active pair. We stimulate each other to action, but we need a break from each other now and then. Well, the Army is good at that! We're not 100% compatible, but what couple is? He finds me a little up in the air as I'm "The Dreamer" while he's "The Duty Fulfiller." I've been told I'm slightly crazy and unpredictable. For someone who likes rules as much as he does, he probably finds it annoying. That's okay. The fact he shows almost no emotion gets to me, too. But I need his "thinking" to balance out my "feeling." Mine's a wee bit overdeveloped due to having bipolar disorder. It works for us. :-)

I used to write all the time. Something the personality profiles said I'd be "good at". No kidding! I know I was good at it. But something happened almost 2 years ago that I illogically linked with writing. Since that time, I haven't been able to work on anything to do with writing. At least nothing more strenuous than emails, texts, and board messages on Ravelry. I hope to find a way to revive my love of writing and unlink it from that something bad. Then maybe I can move forward again. It's been frustrating not having my writing, even something as simple as a blog post or a journal entry.

So wake up, fuzzy mind! It's time to get back to work! I am an introvert and I've been avoiding the biggest part of myself, which is time within my own mind. What happened had nothing to do with you and it's time to stop hiding. Let's dust out the cobwebs and see what we can find. This will be quite the adventure.